Ok i feel a tinge of sadness but I have to do this.

I am going to shut down this blog. It hurts because I had so much done to it. I had it in white, in black , in blue in green and i even had snow and so many added features that to let it go like that is a tad difficult.

I knew this day would come... firstly because, everyone has a hard time loading my blog (blogdrive). And now that I have my new darling moji, that just gives me more reason to change. So with great distress, I present you my new blog.. no frills, no thrills yet. But soon... I may or may not update this one but my primary blog is at http://etherealillusion.blogspot.com/

on another note, I am in malaysia. Yeah !

PS: peeps please change the link to my blog if you have already linked me. Thank you.

Ai weel bi meesing foh wun wik. Dont blem mi, impourtent ehxams cuming up. Ai mis u peepel. anjoing maisalf bahging u. hooohpe too si ohlll ohf u inn Mehlehsiah!

Mooakz end Hahgz

Soooo

Note: I am in no way related to the lily-livered-boy.

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

I was frequenting some of my favourite blogs, and I read an article written by my mom's friend in their blog. And knowing how I am so easily moved by shows I watch, articles I read and news I hear, I am going through a tumble of emotions while reading this entry. I thought of just providing you with a link or copying the entire post and pasting but I think that wouldn't be fair. And I need to my put my two cents in.

Daphne Ling is a bRatster (Star's Youth) who decided to highlight the plight of a little girl Aisya who had Fraser's syndrome.

(Fraser syndrome is an autosomal recessive genetic disease, characterized by developmental defects including underdevelopment of the eyes (cryptophthalmos) and the genitals (micropenis, cryptorchidism or clitoromegaly). Congenital malformations of the nose, ears,larynx, and renal system as well as mental retardation are manifest occasionally. The Fraser syndrome is also known as: Meyer-Schwickerath's syndrome, Fraser-François syndrome, or Ullrich-Feichtiger syndrome~Wikipedia)

So a lot of people commended her and her contributions but there were some people who questioned her good intentions. She would update monthly on the contributions she received and news on the family and Aisya .She ignored many but when melayu jati wrote in, she decided to put her foot down.

Melayu Jati:'apa yang aku tak fahem memang satu. siapa dia ni adik daphne ini? kenapa semua percaya sangat kak dia nak bagi duit nak bagi siti aisya ini? tak pernah ke dengar yang banyak orang yang tipu duit orang? mana bukti yang Siti aisya ni wujud? mana bukti dan buku akaun yang daphne ni tak ambil duit tu untuk dirinya sendiri? tak hairan ke semua orang yang budak cina yang tak kena mengena dengan keluarga si aisya ni nak tolong dia? pandailah sikit. mana ade orang yang nak tolong kalau dia tak dapat ape sendiri terutama kes macam ni. bUdak cina tolong orang melayu konon. pleese pak, bagi lah orang melayu jaga diri sendiri. kalau betul nak tolong aisya, ambil duit sendiri bagi. menyampah nak sibuk jaga kain orang. memang ku menyampah. takdak orang sebaik ni. tipu!dari, melayu jati'

And this is what Marina Mahathir had to say in response to this:
Kalau 'melayu jati' ertinya menuduh orang yang baik hati mencuri, saya bukan melayu jati. Kalau melayu jati ertinya tidak percaya ada orang yang boleh membantu orang yang memerlui tanpa mengira bangsa dan ugama, saya tidak ingin menjadi melayu jati. Kerana sikap inilah, penderitaan berterusan, kerana ada orang yang sentiasa mencari alasan supaya tidak membantu sambil mengkritik orang lain. Saya kasihan kepada Melayu Jati kerana hidup dalam dunia dimana tidak ada 'orang sebaik ni'. Agaknya kalau kita tidak buat baik kepada orang lain, mereka pun tidak buat baik kepada kita. Alangkah gelap dunia kamu.

Translated : If 'melayu jati' (pure Malay) means accusing people who are goodhearted of stealing, then I am not a pure Malay. If 'pure Malay' means not believing that people can help those who need it without considering race and religion, then I don't want to be pure Malay. It is because of attitudes like these that human suffering continues, because there are people who find every excuse not to help while criticising those who do. I feel pity for Melayu Jati because he lives in a world where there are no people 'as good as this'. I guess if you are never good to people, people will never be good to you. What a dark world you live in.

Decide now... which world you are living in now? And which world do you want to live in? Melayu Jati should be out trying to help Aisya and her family instead of wasting his efforts on putting down people who are actually serious about helping people who need it. Do you still believe that there is "goodness" in the world? Would you put down people who believe in it and are willing to make it happen?

To read more about Aisya's plight and how you can help her:
http://daphneling.blogspot.com/

People dwell on pain. People relate to pain.

Do people relate to happiness?

I am in no position right now to write an unbiased post on how people should learn to relate to happiness.

It's May and in one month's time I'll be heading home. This is also the time of the year where I have all my final examinations. This is the most crucial point. Passing every exam is essential. Every moment is stressful and some people feel that they are at their breaking point. However, for me, this time of the year, is the time of the year, that I feel I have lost my steam. My juice. I have lost the will to study my heart and brains out. I ran out of steam. I know it's really important but you reach the point where your mind doesn't comprehend the stress and tension anymore and doesn't know what to do with it. So it does the opposite. I will away my time hoping for inspiration hoping for change in my condition but nothing changes much. I will study of course but it will not be my best and even studying simple things requires tremendous effort. Am I alone in this condition? I believe so. Home is so near yet so far. Next year our schedule will be crazy. So, I plan to party and maximise time in Malaysia when I get back. So peeps, do include me in your plans.

" I'm coming home, I've done my time "