The curse of my blog is back. And what perfect timing. Everytime I type up a post,somehow it ends up missing or accidentally deleted or just disappears. I will not submit to you, you evil thing you! Not when I have not said my piece and you are just taking advantage of me when I'm raging mad and fuming with anger. I will retype my post so you just laugh at that ok!

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A friend of mine asked me to come up with 10 different ways to say faeces in english.So here goes:
1.Faeces
2.Shit
3.Dump
4.Crap
5.Poop/Poo
6.Waste
7.Excrement
8.Turd
9.Stool
10.Turd
11.Dung
12.Droppings
Ok so this is not what prompted me to write this post. Thank goodness! Besides, why would we need another research on faeces when Kevin already did such a great job with his presentation. =)

What prompted me to write this post was the fact that I always told myself that I never take shit from people. And it has just dawned on me, that I do. From everyone, in fact. And why does this bother me so? Because all this while I thought that I was the don't-mess-with-me girl and it seriously bugs me that I didn't see it before.

Am I too nice? Ok so you all know that that is not the case. But I do try not to step on anyone's toes. So why are my toes being stomped on? Why does it bother me? Because it has finally dawned on me that I am a rug. Did I lose you? You know how a rug is placed right in front of a door so that everyone that walks in could wipe their feet or shoes and leave their Ick on it. Yes, I am the rug with the Ick on it. Heck why stop at people even dogs have been known to chew and tug at rugs. But dogs do it unintentionally and thats besides the point.

I remember this once, my friend made me really mad by taking advantage of me and I sort of blew a fuse and exploded on him and shouted some obscenities (hey I'm not proud of it but I was mad and he was taunting me) and what surpised me later was that he told another friend that nothing could anger me. That I could and never would be angry. <scratches head> Even when I explode,some people obviously still don't take me seriously.

Seems like I never was the girl that I thought I was. Goes to show that how you view yourself may not be the way how others view you. I know I whine alot but if only I could tell you what I'm going through,maybe,just maybe,someone out there would understand.

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I am thinking of the past, my past, and so many others that shared it with me. I am truly sorry for the people i hurt albeit unintentionally. There was no other way. It's like saying I want to step on every acre of ground there is on this Earth but not step on a single ant.

Yes,tell me something I don't know. I AM quite mad.

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This is storm the superdog.Blek.

 

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The good you do today, people often forget tomorrow. Do good anyway.

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I feel the need! The need to blog! To blog about weird things! Weird things that make me who I am! I am definately lame!

Lol I know that I can avoid doing this but I'm bored and lame and it's fun to be tagged. Besides, I HAVE to, right? So here are the rules :

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

BTW: It was Kevin who tagged me.

1. I sleep with a bunch of soft toys. The last time I counted the record was about 33? But that's in Malaysia. Here in Ukraine, I have about 6. And that's in two years. Hmm how many would I have when I'm in my 6th year.

2.I have this weird obsession for blue. The colour and the band. You would notice this obsession if you stick around me for awhile. I once collected a whole bunch of blue M&M's and kept them with me for awhile. Until... I got really hungry.

3.Ok this is really weird. I think i inherited something from my grandfather. It is called the Tan Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. No one knows I am affected and I have never said anything about this to anyone. Not to my family and not even to my best friend. I only just realised it. When I think of something or something small is bothering me, I have to sort of undo it before I can do anything else. How do I put this? Ok let's say I am prepared to sleep and I see that my computer or maybe something on my table is not placed well or just not in a position that I am comfortable with, I would have to set it straight. And I sleep on the upper deck of a double decker so it would take a lot of effort to come down and set things straight. But thats the way it is. And after correcting that and climbing on the bed again I realise that something else is out of place, then I have to climb back down again and set it right. It's something that my mind wouldn't let go of until it's done. And I wash my hands and feet many many times compared to a normal person.

4.Ok if Kher-Wei reads this I hope she doesn't clobber in on the head. But I LOVE snow. I love it. Especially when it falls down gently. Not when there's a blizzard or snow storm of course. But it just feels magical to me. Snow is a gift from the Gods. :)

5.I had three piercings in my ears ( before I evened it out with the fourth one) because someone told me I was too predictable. And at that time, it seemed like a big thing with all the new school rules about not having more than a pair of piercings. So I had my ears pierced. Lol!

6. I used to really hate my complexion. I had a bad case of acne and it really did "wonders" for my self esteem. So I used to wish that I could be fat instead of having all those acne. Well I guess I sort of got my wish. Haha.

Ok I'm done. See not one mention of the usual "I-burnt-a-rat-in-the-porcelain-elephant-because-it-ate-my-chocolate" story. I'm pretty normal after all.
And now I would like to tag.

1. Jon-because he SO needs an update. ;) AND he's just weird!
2. Su-Lyn- because I really enjoy her blog and I would like to see her answers.
3. Praz-because I miss her and I miss her blog.
4. Aron Bim- I doubt he reads my blog anymore but I would like to tag him.
5. Kam-Bing-she needs the outlet and this did it for me.
6. Dodo-because I miss her!

And GO!

 

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I have been blogging on and off never completing what I started. It may show a lack of interest, a short attention span or simply because there are more pressing issues to attend to than my blog. I have been dark, depressed and broody this past year. People may not have noticed but underneath everyone's exterior there's more to a person than what you see everyday. I tried to write one of them funny posts that I used to write. Sarcastic, witty and outright absurd but I can't seem to pull that out of my sleeve anymore. It's ok if I was the only one who thought I was sarcastic and witty. =) So, this is a slow start but it beats, me whining about my sorry life huh?

Here goes...

Why movies are good for the soul?

I watch movies or tv shows practically everyday of my life. (erm since I left my home anyway since at home I'm not allowed to watch TV on weekdays) And I got to say it has become such an essential part of my life that I would never dream of giving it up. Now that I am away from home, I get to watch TV all the time. I am having troubles coping with my life lately. Too many complicated issues, all of which I am not allowed to face. These shows remind me that there is more to life than my problems. Often we need an excuse to cry and my movies allow me to do that. They remind me that my family is out there. They remind me to say the things I need to say when I need to say it. Some people who don't watch TV need to know that there is more to this world than just their life. They need to see the bigger picture. Otherwise they are stuck in the fantasies of their life. Anything may happen at any time, and when that comes, where would you want to be. Are you happy with who you are. No, I am not psychotic. Sometimes you need something to make yourself think. Think outside the box. Especially if you lead such a mundane life like mine. What show did I watch that prompted me to write this? The answer is Grey's Anatomy.

Ok so quickly before I lose interest and delete this I am going to post it.

Here goes

PS: I don't like this post. Eck!

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Hey you,

If you think this applies to you it probably does, and you! yeah you I am not talking about you ok so please don't go flattering yourself.

I didn't know my choices would lead us down this road. This shouldn't have happened. Everything should have been just the same. I cannot change my decisions nor do I regret them. At least I don't regret this one. But why does that aspect of my life have to change as well. Why did you induce that? Does hurting me that way get you anywhere? I must have inflicted some pain on you albeit unintentional. I am not happy that you feel this way but there is nothing I can do to break down the wall you built. It is not my responsibility to. I am never going to put myself out there again after you did that to me. Everything so subtle yet so blatantly obvious that you might as well have reached out and slapped me across the face. I know what you're doing and I know what you're thinking. But theres nothing I can do and nothing that I should feel guilty about.

Do it with me will you ... here we go 1 2 3 SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

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I told myself, today will be different. Today I will be strong,



And then I fall.

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